Today was never going to be a good day since it's the day my cat is being put down (he's probably buried by now, I didn't want to be there) but it's been even worse than I'd imagined.
On the upside my Law teacher's baby was born (his wife teaches Psychology here too so there's a bit of a buzz about it at college), but that meant he wasn't in our Law lesson and that meant arguments about a whole bunch of stuff. It got stupid and I got randomly pissed off at something, and walked out for two hours. Seems my friends got panicky because they couldn't find me, and looked all over for me, and asked a lot of teachers if they'd seen me. Now I feel a bit stupid for getting everyone so worried but I needed to be alone to sort out my head. I found a really good alone place, by the portacabin where the disabled students have their classes. It sounds odd but sitting there helped to remind me that there are different ways of being "normal" and there's no point getting upset that someone thinks my accent is posh (seriously, that was the petty little straw that broke the camel's back today). Also no one thought to look there, it's at the back of the building by the construction site and that side of the college isn't being used much.
Anyway I'm feeling a lot better now, although when I get home in about an hour I imagine I'll start crying again, because my cat will not be there to say hello. I'm going to miss him pretty badly.