LONG POST ARG
I saw Barack Obama today! He was not 50 feet away!
He's soooooo dreamy!
And I owe it all to unfairness. We cut in line behind some people who had been waiting 3 hours longer than us. There's a lesson in there, somewhere.
In other news, I feel like beating my head against a rock, because I think I am falling for my wonderful friend, who happens to be a lesbian. It's more inconvenient than anything. I guess it'll pass. But she's always so damned supportive and she always does something, like draw me a picture or perform a vaudeville routine, whenever she knows I'm being morose about something. She's just one of those people it's difficult not to be attracted to (my other friends are also nursing crushes, but it is no fair, because they are women and I am a man). I guess the whole orientation conflict is somewhat good, as I will never, ever get my hopes up and thus never, ever irrevocably ruin anything (not in the usual ways, at least). By God, I'm going to settle for being friends, and I'm going to like it.
Oh, story sort of tying these things together. Remember the friend I posted about awhile back who got attached to the crazy woman and disappeared, only to reappear, and then disappear again? Well he reappeared again. There was a free concert (that was quite good, there was an unexpectedly post-rock-y opener) tonight and I wanted to drag him along. He said he would call me, but he did not. Last night, we ran into him by chance at the supermarket, and he said that he probably couldn't come because he had a family dinner at 4:00 this afternoon that he had to attend. Well, those people that we cut in line behind at the Obama rally? They were my friend's family, who we ran into completely by chance. He was not with them. The rally ended at 4:30, and his family was there for the duration. So he lied to my face, basically. He also told me that the reason he didn't answer his phone was because he didn't get reception at his place, which I suspected was a lie, since his phone rang and my other friend's (who actually has this problem) phone does not ring when he's out of a serviced area. So I'm betting that was a lie as well.
So that's what my old friend does. He calls me out of the blue when he's bored, we hang out for an hour and a half (never longer), he tells me he'll call me (he never does) and he talks about all the free time he has (which he can never spare) I've about had it. He's been out of my life for years now, I figure I shouldn't let him be half-in (or 1/10th in, as the case may be) so I'm not even going to worry myself over it. But I did tonight, as I attended the concert alone. My best friend told me she'd try to come, but she volunteered at the rally today and she was too frazzled. I was hoping I'd see her, as she's the best for lifting my black moods. Luckily for me, my two other friends showed up halfway through the show and the one I'm falling for drew my portrait on a cocktail napkin.
tl;dr I am very fortunate.
Man, there's a lot of stuff I could go on about, but I've typed entirely too much already.