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I'm having mixed feelings about the internet these days.
Slick:
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Wut.
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See yeah I was just stating how I feel. Wut?
I am just feeling all kinds of mixed because I think the internet could be a good part of a healthy life for me but I think my life generally is not terribly healthy right now, so I am unhappy.
I am fairly glad for the people I've met from about. I think it is basically awesome that I have gotten free crashing space in Guelph and in Regina for myself and friends and also that someone left their home on a whim to takes over 100km worth of busses (and subway) to come eat food in my home.
I am probably suffering from larger 'life stagnation syndrome' from being here (everywhere I am right now) too long.
KvP:
To be clear, I wasn't disparaging anybody's input, I just think there is some sort of objective nugget of wisdom we can draw from an aggregate of everyone's experience and observation. The internet is a big thing, no?
LittleKey:
I think the internet is like almost anything else: it's good in moderation. I mean, think of all the stuff you can learn from Wikipedia, how much easier it is to buy and sell stuff online... all these things that are made so much easier by the internet. But then you also have to unplug sometimes and just go for a jog/read a book/whatever. So yeah, I say as long as you know when to stop, the internet is cool.
Patrick:
The internet is about 90% of my life, but I don't think of it as being very pathetic, mostly because of my lifestyle. I move more often than some species of migratory animals, and so it's really the best way to keep track of people. While my physical and mailing addresses change pretty much constantly, my email address is probably the only thing about me that hasn't changed in 5 years. Hell, for a while, my friend back in California and I had a little band deal going on where we would each record our different parts and sortof internet-Postal Service that shit.
The internet is also a great resource for people who are lazy, and I definitely fit that bill. Guitar set up tips, music, news, and even education, to a certain degree. And it's also great for finding products or services that otherwise would be completely obscured to your awareness.
The internet also contains horse porn. So it's a lesson in Confucianism. See? It even helps me understand spiritualism, in an abstract sort of way.
The internet is pretty awesome.
Lunchbox:
Basically I think I feel exactly how Kieffer says he felt in the first post. The Internet is amazing, and probably the most important part of my life. It lets me associate with you amazing people and here I'm actually liked and respected to some degree. Everyone seems to know me, which is an awesome feeling.
I've just been feeling kind of hollow and depressed for the past couple of months, though. It's not you, Internet, it is me. Six months ago I broke up with my boyfriend and best friend of six and a bit years. He was pretty much the only friend I had, since my other best friend moved to Canada a couple of years ago. I moved to Sydney, the big smoke, several hours drive away from my little home town and my warring family. Despite how happy I am that I got out of that relationship and that life, I have never felt so very alone.
I find it so easy to relate to people and to have a little self esteem on the internet, but in real life I only ever feel awkward and unwanted and completely unattractive in both personality and appearance. I don't know why this is, really.
I've made one new friend since I've been in Sydney, and I met him on OKcupid, so he still doesn't count as making a 'real' new friend if you know what I mean. And even though he's fun and he compliments me and rings me up occasionally to see how I'm going (and he has a lovely girlfriend so there is nothing going on with unrequited feelings etc), I still find myself making excuses not to hang out with him.
I am also seeing an amazing boy who I met though kind of normal circumstances (we met at a party a year ago, whilst I was still with my ex), and as wonderful as it is to spend time with him I am still wracked with self-doubt and insecurity about my appearance and whether I'm actually interesting or fun to be around at all. He's leaving in a few weeks anyway, and I might not ever see him again, so my silly head is telling me that any hope that I might have had to gain a somewhat normal life where I spend lots of actual time in the flesh with real life people is sort of lost with that. I'm already broken hearted over losing him and I think this will probably draw me more into my little internet shell.
And lately it's been tricky on the internet as well! Someone who I thought was my very best friend has stopped talking to me after years of friendship and now I just find myself sitting alone in my little apartment, my AIM window open and nobody on my contact list. It's making me even more depressed and I don't know what to do with myself! (Oh hey, if any of you want to IM me the details are in my profile. I will probably just moan about how sad I am but I feel like I need someone to jolt me out of this reverie!)
Oh internet, such a blessing, such a curse.
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