Dear I fucking hate the entire world thread,
Today I finally figured out that my parents do not give even the smallest fuck about me, my life, or my future.
I have six (6) fucking days until I'm supposed to begin attending classes and I haven't heard a goddamn word back from my mother on the subject of filling out financial aid applications and paperwork. She promised me that this weekend she'd get it done, but today is now Monday. Interesting, however, that I'm seeing on her Facebook that she spent the weekend in Shkodėr buying masks from the factory that makes all the masks that are sold at Carnival in Venice.
Some people's fucking priorities. She gets to go off on trips with her pals to go buy a bunch of pretty masks, I sit here in tears because of her fucking lazy ass not taking the thirty mother fucking minutes it takes to fill that financial aid shit out.
My father has failed to give as much as moral support (and has flat out refused to help me financially) and has instead decided to tell me that I shouldn't try to get into a 4-year institution and should instead try to get into community college. He said I'd never get into Art Institute. I got into Art Institute on a GED and two essays I wrote while I was stoned and drunk out of my fucking mind, and they didn't even bother reading both of them before they accepted me, so he can suck my fatty goddamn cock.
On top of this, I still can't find work, live music gigs are few and far between and they don't pay anywhere near enough, I have two dollars to my name, I'm down to one gig-worthy guitar, I've lost 15lbs in the last month because I literally cannot afford food, and I haven't been able to do laundry since I fucking moved into this apartment over two motherfucking months ago because I can't afford god damned laundry detergent.
TL;DR my parents fucking suck cocks, and I wish I were goddamn dead because that would sure as fuck beat the life I am barely living.