I don't know if Sam would be an attractive woman.
Anyway, Blog Thread, thank you for your kind words about my uh...life situation. It hasn't really gotten better, except now I think my parents feel bad about essentially leaving me homeless, and are being really nice to me. Like many things in my life, I don't know what to do about this.
I don't really feel much anymore, and I guess that is fine and well. Well, it is sort of a lie. I think I've lost the ability to worry about things. I don't know. Except in my sleep! I keep having strange dreams. One involved an elephant, one involved sending dirty text messages to someone I don't like, in one I turned into a tree(!!! This is actually a huge weird fear of mine)and in another I did not exist! I was a figment of my own imagination. It really stressed me out in my dream. I went to my not really apartment, and was quite distraught to discover some guy living there. Then I found myself in my bedroom, laying on the bed, but I was blurry and not quite there. In my dream, I said "Oh Emaline..tsk tsk." and went to readjust myself out of blurriness, but screwed it up somehow, and instead of coming in sharp and clear, I disappeared. This shocked imagined me, and I worried that I wasn't really, and ran out of the apartment, which was now the center of a swanky party. But soon I disappeared as well.
My dreams have all been mildly upsetting.
But I have been keeping to myself more(which is easy since all my friends have ditched me), and instead of being even more depressing, this is exciting! I have read two books in the past few days, and finished a few art projects, which is something that I have been meaning to do. I need to focus more on my art so I can get better, and go to school, and become a great hermit artist! This is sort of my life plan.