Hog Leg,
I'm going to be an ignorant cunt and just post my stuff here without even acknowledging other people because honestly I just read through 10 pages of stuff and there is way too much I wanted to comment on for me to go back and start.
I started playing World of Warcraft again. This is not particularly noteworthy aside from I already took a sick day from work just to play it - I was ill when Wrath of the Lich King was released, spent the weekend sat in front of the PC, mostly without getting dressed because that would involve leaving the PC but was fine by Monday - and am generally spending all my free time on it. My original plan was to limit my playtime lest I get addicted again and I don't seem to be doing a great job of that. Realising how much I missed on these forums when I was originally lurking pretty heavily and checking all the time has rammed this home a bit, too.
Playing WoW, though, has reminded me of a dumb decision I made shortly before I quit. Basically, I was offered an opportunity to work for Blizzard, move to France, escape this dead end place I hate and do a job I'm excellent at while expanding my horizons. I chose not to, because leaving would involve leaving behind a girl I am completely enamoured with, even though that is a dead end in terms of romance. She is my best friend though, which is easily just as awesome. I subsequently lied about my decision to everybody I know because I know my friends would have crucified me for it.
Away from this, my oldest friend - previously the star of such previous thread posts as 'wow my friend got arrested' and 'I bought him £200 worth of Metallica stuff' - hasn't let up with being a dickhead. After going into critical depression for a period after the 'episode' with his ex-girlfriend, he found out she'd been seeing somebody else and suddenly doesn't seem to shoulder any guilt or remorse about what happened, which disgusts me to my core. I can't bear to see him, he isn't changing at all from the douche he'd been acting like for the past three months and I'm left wondering why I couldn't see this coming earlier. I'm not a guy who calls a lot of people 'friends' so now I am left with the girl mentioned above and another woman I don't really see as often as I'd like.
This evening my mother flooded out the house while trying to bleed her radiator and afterwards I just sat terrified in my room, not moving or making a sound, not even listening to music, because of some stupid fear she would lose it and beat the crap out of me, even though she hasn't raised so much as a finger to me in four years. Now she is getting drunk but I hope to be asleep before she gets obliterated.
Generally I feel like things are coming to a dead end. It is a time for change but I don't see what, or how I can achieve it. Things had generally been pretty good and even this week got off to an amazing start, but now suddenly everything seems to be crashing down at once. Maybe I am being melodramatic. I'm in the process of applying for a loan and, after finally finding somebody who would approve it despite my abysmal credit history and my employment status - I am a temp even though I am regularly being introduced onto new products and have been working there for almost a year - it is now looking like I won't be able to get it because of documentation... the guy from the loan company is coming tomorrow morning and I can't print my bank statements from my online service - off the back of my mother flooding out her room and ruining the printer - and I can't find my passport, haven't been able to find it since I got back from Paris for the job interview mentioned above. Not getting the loan will not screw me over in any great way, but I wanted to buy something as part of a hilariously overblown gesture to 'the girl' and I won't be able to put the deposit down in time if I can't get the money in the next couple weeks.
Full circle! But it is crappy.
Still, I am going to London on Sunday to hang out with a WoW friend I have not seen for a long time, and to see Coheed & Cambria's Neverender week thing. It should be a lot of fun, and after that it is relaxation week at work, with free food, massages and general fun things, then it will be my birthday and Xmas! So hopefully things will sort themselves out while I am drunk.
End. Sorry for the mindless self indulgence.
And also Mr. Dski I hope you are recovering well!
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