"consistent suicide"

so here we are again
sad and dead
blah and unspoken
yes I'm depressed and
yes I feel not worth it
yes I'm stupid and mixed up
I can't let go
I just need to let go
It's not you it's me
that phrase you always hear
listen because I love you
I don't give a shit about 2nd and 3rd bases
I only cared because it made you feel bad
but I was too thick headed to see that
your not ready
that you weren't ready
so forget it love
what do I have to be sad about
you are what makes me happy
you are what makes me feel
I'm not washing 6 months down the drain
over something so small
so we had some bad feelings
doesn't everyone
doesn't every relationship
but I still love you more
and I know you're feeling crappy
and that th ebad got worse
don't worry cause
I'm not washing 6 months down the drain
over something so small
I couldn't let go
I need to let go
if anyone is saying goodbyes
its these insecurities
that dig my holes
making graves
so deep
each one filled with what's gone wrong
count them one by one
the consistent suicides
the consistences
now down the road not across the street kids
play pancake with traffic
fucking hell
no more talk of dying
maiada your more to me than my inner desire to die alone
i'll just say it
let me say it
you're the air that makes lungs breath
you're the blood that flows in me
you're honestly my everything
I'm such an obsessive emo boy
you're what makes me corny
lets love eachother
and make corny remarks
lets laugh and cuddle
and look at pictures of
yawning rabbits
I heart you
and today my consistency stops
it's a bad habbit
and one that makes me feel I'm losing you
no more talk of that
just plenty of hugs
I'm not washing 6 months down the drain