Topic: Blog Thread 5: A New Beginning (Read 49536 times)

Thrillho · « **Reply #450 on:** 17 Aug 2019, 12:06 »

It can really sometimes feel like a tiny bit of hope can be crushed so quickly by the reality around it.

Patrick · « **Reply #451 on:** 17 Aug 2019, 15:35 »

Quote from: Thrillho on 17 Aug 2019, 12:06

It can really sometimes feel like a tiny bit of hope can be crushed so quickly by the reality around it.

I feel that, old friend.

On one hand, I started my new job. On the other hand, my girlfriend and I broke up. Almost made it 2 years, our anniversary would have been next month. Weirdly enough, we're still probably going to live together because... well, why would I want to live with anyone else? We still love each other dearly, we just... aren't romantically in love.

Thrillho · « **Reply #452 on:** 17 Aug 2019, 15:44 »

That fucking sucks, man. Sounds like a mature approach to the breakup at least. Are you guys locked into a housing contract?

Patrick · « **Reply #453 on:** 18 Aug 2019, 11:19 »

By law, no, but it just makes more sense to. Me and our roommate are the only ones with income due to her inability to work in a typical job (chronic illness, may have mentioned before? I forget), but she does some office work for him and she also maintains the house to the best of her ability. Her pain is debilitating for her at times, but none of us complain about/fail to appreciate her contribution. I just wish it didn't get in the way of her enjoying more of what life has to offer. And obviously, none of that is why we broke up.

Thrillho · « **Reply #454 on:** 18 Aug 2019, 12:52 »

Jesus Christ Pat the maturity level in that post is just goddamn sickening

Do you remember we used to be on this forum when we were still CHILDREN for fuck's sake?

pwhodges · « **Reply #455 on:** 18 Aug 2019, 13:42 »

You even had "Kid" as part of your user name then.

Thrillho · « **Reply #456 on:** 18 Aug 2019, 14:09 »

Ah yes, the Bad Old Days.

Castlerook · « **Reply #457 on:** 18 Aug 2019, 14:30 »

People change, so do names. You pick up something from the forums, probably a virus. And somewhere along the way, you learn something, you become a little older and a little wiser and your perspective of the world changes.

And then you too can complain about the little gobshites that make their way around after you.

pwhodges · « **Reply #458 on:** 30 Aug 2019, 02:50 »

Crossing the road the modern way:

https://www.ouest-france.fr/pays-de-la-loire/le-mans-72000/le-mans-un-passage-pieton-aux-couleurs-lgbt-inaugure-6366861

Patrick · « **Reply #459 on:** 01 Sep 2019, 10:18 »

soooo my roommate is kicking me out. ada's gone off to stay with his girlfriend, and took the kitty. it's because she wants space to deal with her feelings, which i get. don't know why my roommate's kicking me out though. but boy is that fuckin great.

Patrick · « **Reply #460 on:** 01 Sep 2019, 10:25 »

and... holy fuck, yeah, it's crazy to me that i can be posting this on the same forum i used to shitpost on, back before shitposting had a name. shit i think my participation here even predates rickrolling.

Thrillho · « **Reply #461 on:** 01 Sep 2019, 12:45 »

It does. Rick Rolling was 2008 I believe.

Shitty behaviour by your room mate. I thought you had some stability.

Patrick · « **Reply #462 on:** 01 Sep 2019, 21:23 »

me too. there we go thinking again.

Patrick · « **Reply #463 on:** 06 Sep 2019, 23:39 »

hey here's a great bit of news: i've been selected, alongside 4 of my squadmates, to participate in closed beta testing for the flight sim game i've sunk over 800 hours of my life into. i can't give any more details about it than that, but it's a much needed pick me up. also, i got my first full paycheck from my new job, and... mmmm baby keep that shit coming! nice to feel some financial relief coming.

Patrick · « **Reply #464 on:** 13 Sep 2019, 17:18 »

AAAAAAAAAAND back to bad news: got fired 2 days ago

fucking kill me pls

Welu · « **Reply #465 on:** 25 Sep 2019, 12:50 »

Woke up at 3am last night and thought, "That sounds like rain... But inside?"
Water tank in attic has a hole in it, water was leaking through the ceiling in two areas. Got the tank empty and have no running water. Have to completely replace the tank which thankfully will happen tomorrow. Got a couple bottles of water from mum to get us through the night.

Castlerook · « **Reply #466 on:** 25 Sep 2019, 13:23 »

Ouch, sorry to hear that. Hope everything gets sorted

I got a patio door replaced yesterday. The guys did a really quick job, got everything sorted...until I asked why there were this plastic wedges holding the door panes in place. "Oh yeah, turns out you're supposed to have 28mm glass for the double glazing and someone mistook the 8 for a 0. Long story short, it'll be about 2 weeks to get the new glass cut."

So while I technically have a working sliding door...I also have half a door...

Wingy · « **Reply #467 on:** 26 Sep 2019, 04:55 »

Quote from: Welu on 25 Sep 2019, 12:50

Woke up at 3am last night and thought, "That sounds like rain... But inside?"

Yuck. I hope it's all taken care of expeditiously.

I've got a similar story involving a roofing job and stepping out of bed into mud. Inside the house, on the bedroom floor. <cue the original Danger Mouse: "Well, there's only one thing for it, Penfold." "What's that, Chief?" "Panic!">

[Edit to get quote accurate, though the sense was right all along.]

Welu · « **Reply #468 on:** 27 Sep 2019, 15:01 »

Got the new tank in. The hallway needs some cleaning cause it's carpet and got soaked but we've got running water again!

Patrick · « **Reply #469 on:** 09 Oct 2019, 03:21 »

So I moved back to my hometown (ugh), but I have a nice roommate and the rent is cheap, and there's SIX KITTIES OMFG YESSSS. And I got my old job back at the restaurant where I worked back in 2016. I had stopped by there for a beer, and one of the managers came up to me and said, "Hey, if you wanna work here again, we'd love to have you! Just say the word!" Next day, I texted him, said the word, and I start soon.

This time around, I'm making it my goal to spend as little time away from home/work as possible. Or at least, stay away from the people I used to hang out with, who only ever wanted to do stuff involving booze. I like drinking way too much, so I need to not be around those folks anymore.

To be honest, the older I get, the less I really want to be friends with people IRL. Like, I still have those people that I'm close to, and I love them, and I'll still hang out with them. The ones who are actually good for me. But I'm not the social butterfly I once was. I'm not interested in making lots of new friends. I just wanna stream when I play flight sims, write and play my music with my new band, and love on these kitties.

Thrillho · « **Reply #470 on:** 09 Oct 2019, 09:09 »

I super empathise with that last bit.

I would like to see people too, a little, but like... please just come to my house.

Is it cold in here? · « **Reply #471 on:** 27 Oct 2019, 01:02 »

I've been to cuddle parties two nights in a row. One host supplied a weighted blanket along with giant stuffies.

Patrick · « **Reply #472 on:** 28 Oct 2019, 03:15 »

It's been a little under a month since I updated, but a decent amount has happened. I started back at my old restaurant, and it's a lot like riding a bike. You don't really forget how to do it. With old age and world-weariness has come a lack of motivation to chase skirts (you would not believe how sexually charged a restaurant workplace can be unless you've worked in one) and so I'm staying out of trouble. I do have a crush, but I'm still not really over my breakup, so I'm just gonna continue doing what I do best: stay home and mind my own business.

My band's going really well. Got a super rough demo recorded at our last practice (just a stereo mic in the corner of the room to record everything), but as rough as the quality actually is, it proves to us that we have something special going on that goes beyond just playing together in the moment. Our set is about 30 minutes of original music, which is really impressive for only playing together for 2-3 months. We're looking for shows in the Bay Area as we speak. We had one booked, but we found out that it doesn't pay, so we bounced out immediately.

My hyper atheist, anti-christian ass played guitar for a church service this morning. It wasn't an awful experience, but I still wore my Iron Maiden t-shirt underneath my flannel. $150 is coming my way in a week in return. Can't complain too much about getting paid like that for a single gig.

Is it cold in here? · « **Reply #473 on:** 30 Oct 2019, 23:21 »

Cool things! May there be many more.

Is it cold in here? · « **Reply #474 on:** 03 Dec 2019, 19:46 »

I missed making my 20,000th post a thank you to everyone, but thanks to a reminder from Mr. Numbers I only missed it by a little.

I have met extraordinary people here and had my mind expanded considerably and learned new skills.

I offer my deep appreciation to everyone I have learned from.

JoeCovenant · « **Reply #475 on:** 04 Dec 2019, 02:07 »

Quote from: Is it cold in here? on 03 Dec 2019, 19:46

I offer my deep appreciation to everyone I have learned from.

Hey!
What about those of us you just wanna punch!??

Morituri · « **Reply #476 on:** 05 Dec 2019, 12:29 »

Quote from: JoeCovenant on 04 Dec 2019, 02:07

Quote from: Is it cold in here? on 03 Dec 2019, 19:46
I offer my deep appreciation to everyone I have learned from.
What about those of us you just wanna punch!??

It's amazing, but if IICIH is much like me, then those are mostly the same set of people.

pwhodges · « **Reply #477 on:** 05 Dec 2019, 15:37 »

True - being able to learn from those you disagree with is as important as learning from those you do agree with. It's also harder.

Akima · « **Reply #478 on:** 05 Dec 2019, 16:00 »

Truer words were never spoken.

Is it cold in here? · « **Reply #479 on:** 05 Dec 2019, 20:10 »

I have learned a great deal from Akima's respectful but unsparing arguments with me.

Akima · « **Reply #480 on:** 07 Dec 2019, 21:06 »

You have altogether too high an opinion of me.

I have learned a great deal from people in this forum, some of them sadly departed.

Patrick · « **Reply #481 on:** 12 Dec 2019, 23:59 »

I've had the privilege of learning a lot from people around here. I first joined this forum with a lot of toxic beliefs and behaviors, and over the years, and through everybody's immense patience, I've unlearned a significant number of em. Wish I'd done that sooner.

Patrick · « **Reply #482 on:** 13 Dec 2019, 00:06 »

Oh yeah. I have a new band called Tacky Art (might have mentioned before), and we're playing our first show on the night of the winter solstice. It's gonna be a really fun time, I think. It's in Alameda, CA, just outside of Oakland, so I'm really hoping some of my friends from my 2 years living in Oakland will be able to come to it!

Dngrsone · « **Reply #483 on:** 13 Dec 2019, 02:01 »

This person looks familiar, FSR

Patrick · « **Reply #484 on:** 20 Dec 2019, 03:32 »

Despite some idiotic complications of the American medical system, I am alive, and doing relatively well. I have my band's first show coming up soon. I have a couple different girls who I am friends with, who seem to be romantically interested in me at the same time (which is something I've never knowingly experienced before). One of them is coming to my band's first show. The other, we have plans to spend time together right after Christmas, and then again for New Year's Eve (and my birthday is New Year's Day). And, something that may surprise people who knew me back before I was properly socialized: I am really excited to spend time with these women, whether they fuck me or not. It's just nice to have the company of people I like. Fuck, I wish I had known 15 years ago that this was a thing I could enjoy innocently.

I have a job I love, working for people I respect and admire, with a team I am happy to support. It doesn't pay well, but there's some things money can't buy, right? Especially in America. However, I'm considering taking a morning job, and telling my current gig that I can only work evening shifts. Because this is America; don't catch me slippin up. Medical debt, credit debt, personal debt, it can all cripple you. And I have a plan for a trade school + career by the time I'm 32. I am determined to make it, and I'm not about to let any of those things slow me down.

Is it cold in here? · « **Reply #485 on:** 20 Dec 2019, 06:56 »

Go for it!

I stayed at a Holiday Inn last night.

Patrick · « **Reply #486 on:** 22 Dec 2019, 19:31 »

Band's first show was last night. The girl who was supposed to come with me ghosted me, which didn't put me in the best headspace going into the show, but the minute I pulled up to the venue and loaded in, all that disappeared. A whole bunch of friends came to see us play, and the other band brought lots of folks too. We completely rocked the piss out of our set, and the whole rest of the night felt like a victory lap.

I'm very grateful to have today and tomorrow off. For a guy who doesn't move around much onstage, that sure took a lot out of me.

Quote from: Is it cold in here? on 20 Dec 2019, 06:56

I stayed at a Holiday Inn last night.

How was that?

Is it cold in here? · « **Reply #487 on:** 23 Dec 2019, 11:04 »

Congrats!

The room was clean and had enough outlets and USB slots in usable places.

Is it cold in here? · « **Reply #488 on:** 24 Dec 2019, 20:19 »

There wasn't any snow on Christmas Eve.

When I told my father that a friend in Australia had asked me to send him Christmas wishes, he deadpanned "Does she have snow?". My dad's deadpan is something that has to be seen to be believed. Of course he knows the seasons are reversed in the land where everything is umop apisdn.

cesium133 · « **Reply #489 on:** 01 Feb 2020, 13:36 »

So I've been messing around with making a Jeopardy-style lockout buzzer system. I'm currently coding a program for practicing ringing in the buzzer. The goal is to have a synthesized voice read the question to you, then you have to ring in within a certain amount of time. I'm also considering maybe adding in voice recognition for answering the clues, but that's probably not worth the trouble. I'm using clues that I downloaded from j-archive.com to populate its database. And I've been learning some things from them

(this is a Baseball clue, $100):

(click to show/hide)

Patrick · « **Reply #490 on:** **Yesterday** at 01:08 »

ok so a lot of shit has happened since my last

so my ex was in possession of my dad's entire record collection, which he left to me when he died. she also had my great-grandpa's gold pocket watch, of immeasurable sentimental value (and probably of some serious financial value, since it was solid gold besides the inner workings). welp. all of that shit went to goodwill, because apparently me coming every week to grab what i could fit into my mini cooper wasn't evidence enough that i valued it sincerely. so. if i wind up in prison, y'all know why (jk, but fuck if i haven't entertained some shitty thoughts in my head that i would never actually act upon).

anyway. it's been crazy in my life since then. my car registration is overdue because i'm poor. i just added $1500 to my medical debt because i dared to be born with asthma in the United States of Go Fuck Yourself You Pathetic Sick Piece Of Shit. i have a band and we're doing decently well, despite having only played 2 shows ever. i still work in a restaurant, and we had a busy last week, and i love every coworker i have except for one person, who can lick my scummy boots.

my mental state: questionable, on a good day, but overall i think i'll be alright maybe? fuck knows at this point. i might be trying to repress my real feelings about the shit i'm dealing with, because that's just how i have always operated, but everyone knows how that always ends up. i just don't know what i can possibly do that would reset things back to the way they were 7 months ago, so that i can have a more favorable avalanche of garbage pile its way into my mouth than the one i've got now.

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