No yew aren't Dovey.
Oh wait.
Blaggy,
I kind of walked out of work last night early. The shirt they gave me to wear ended up causing me to break out in hives all over my body and I was pretty upset because A) I was itchy and couldn't stop scratching and B) I could feel it start to swell around my throat and C) Because of this, my coworkers were pissed off at me because for some odd fucking reason (and they could see the hives) I wasn't working nearly as efficiently. There's three guys specifically - my new supervisor (my current supervisor's a pretty cool dude actually but he's leaving in a few weeks apparently) and two coworkers who have been there for years that...well, at the risk of sounding like a crazy hippie, that just give off all these bad vibes and negativity and hostility that just lingers with me when I'm around them and hurts and upsets me and makes me feel sick afterwards but while I'm there makes me want to hurt them and cause violence.
When I was back in school and when I worked at Darien Lake (amusement park) I would have really terrible nightmares generally about a) being helpless b) being hunted and c) being killed. I haven't had nightmares in the last few months, but now I'm starting to and it's getting bad because these are getting a lot worse than before and a lot more graphic and terrifying than before including one a few nights ago where I ended up getting lost in this town and I tried to stop and ask for directions and I don't remember how but I ended up way out in the woods and there was some witches ceremony (which is weird because in reality I am friends with a couple witches and they are actually some of the most understanding people I have ever met) and they ended up trying to kill me and I'm running through cornfields and trying to get away and there's these little children that were part of the cult and there was blood everywhere and people dying and I woke up...and I've ahd worse dreams than that...and goddammit, I just want to be able to sleep again without waking up more tired than I was when I went to sleep.
TL;DR I hate this job, too, and it's giving me headaches, and my coworkers upset me greatly, and I'm having nightmares again.