Fantastic comic, I love Faye's expression in the last two panels. I know it's a strange thing to say about a fictional character, but I'm glad to see that this looks like it'll be something that's really good for her.
I hate that Faye is characterizing her reluctance to drop everything and move to NY with Angus as cowardice. Idk, maybe a part of that is fear of change.
"Cowardice" is a strong, harsh word, with negative connotations and context. To that end, Faye's probably not being completely fair to herself, but I see where she's coming from. Not doing something she didn't want to do or didn't feel comfortable with doing doesn't necessarily make her a coward, nor does deciding not to pursue a relationship that she's not sure enough about to make such a big change and take such a big risk. However, I think it's more about what the situation represents and how she dealt with it that makes her feel cowardly.
Specifically:
- When presented with an opportunity to do something different, something more with her life, she balked. Fair enough of course, but she didn't even want to even consider it.
- She didn't want to deal with the unpleasant reality of the situation, so she tried to put it out of her mind and didn't bring up her concerns with Angus. When she needed help coping or forgetting, she reached for alcohol.
- When presented with a solution - giving a long distance relationship a try - she avoided giving the matter much thought, and immediately decided against it once Angus got the job.
- In their final conversation, she couldn't even look at Angus, or give him any kind of answer except "I have to get back to work". No suggestion of talking more about it later, or anything like that. It's too hard, I'm out, it's over.
Fear is definitely a motivation in all of that, but it's understandable, so calling herself a "coward" is a very blunt and harsh assessment. I do think the underlying sentiment is accurate though, even if the word isn't. She was afraid to deal with the situation, afraid to try, afraid that trying might result in failure and heartbreak, so she ultimately bailed before she could get hurt. Only, that was going to happen either way, and because she was afraid to work through those issues, she sought solace and distraction, and arguably confidence and self-esteem, in a bottle. It's a harsh thing to say about herself, but I think it shows she's aware of what she did and how she could've handled things better, as well as a willingness to get better.