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Ballard:
I think the plan right now is to stop smoking for long enough to evaluate what's going on in my head. The time I used to take to reflect on daily goings-on and learn to meditate I replaced with smoking (in the flawed belief that it was the same deal or better for me) and that resulted in a shitty, endless inner monologue that plagues me any time I get high.
I honestly don't think that my pot smoking has become a coping mechanism. I have never consciously gotten high to feel better. Usually I smoke when I'm in a good mood and just wanna chill.
Quitting smoking will only be difficult because a large majority of my friends smoke often and it's just become a part of my life and recreation plans. I don't find myself psychologically addicted. Quite the opposite, since lately I've come to associate feeling like ass about myself with being high.
Is it it possible that I can resolve my issues in a healthy manner and then smoke again and enjoy it as a positive experience, without worry?
onewheelwizzard:
--- Quote from: Ballard on 10 Feb 2010, 22:34 ---Quitting smoking will only be difficult because a large majority of my friends smoke often and it's just become a part of my life and recreation plans.
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Dogg it is really, really easy to just be like "no thanks" when you're chilling with people and they're smoking and they offer you the joint or bowl or whatever. You might get a few people halfheartedly complaining about how you're a buzzkill, but unless they are your best friend and they are only saying that because they're really, really used to smoking with you and genuinely miss the good ol' gettin' stoned and hangin' out ritual (and, as your established best friend, are within their rights to voice some degree of disappointment), this is actually just an indicator that there is no reason to ever make them your best friend. Anyone who talks shit on you for opting not to smoke with them is a douchebag. With this in mind, you should find it no problem at all. ("I'm taking a break" is all anyone should ever need to hear.)
Alternately, you may discover that it is not smoking weed that makes you feel shitty, but rather, the nature of the situations in which you smoke weed (and therefore always coincide with your high). If you find yourself getting all anxious and depressed when you're hanging with your buddies and everyone but you is smoking, it was probably not the pot that made you anxious and depressed in the first place.
Halfway through college I realized that, ever since I'd smoked for the first time during the summer after graduating from high school, I hadn't gone longer than 3 weeks without getting high. I decided that if I still cared about learning about my mind (which was the goal I had when I started using drugs), I should probably take some time to find out what happens when I stay sober. I abstained from all mind alterants altogether for 3 months. It was a piece of cake, and it ended up helping quite a bit. I recommend that you go with 40 days ... see how you feel after 40 days of not smoking (and honestly I'd recommend not drinking either), and if you think you've figured some shit out, try it again and see if anything's different.
If this sounds like an unpleasant exercise in asceticism, that is actually a good indicator that you'll benefit from it. If, instead, it sounds like it really wouldn't be a big deal at all, that's also a good reason to try it out (proving yourself right will be worth it).
Ballard:
This sounds like a very good thing to do.
syrupykeyboard:
My pager is bollucks. My invisible cane snapped in half. I am slightly high.
Someone needed a differential?
ViolentDove:
--- Quote from: Ballard on 10 Feb 2010, 22:34 ---Is it it possible that I can resolve my issues in a healthy manner and then smoke again and enjoy it as a positive experience, without worry?
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Like I said, I got into a state where smoking would always bring on a panic attack. Now I am pretty fine with it! It took quitting for a a year or two and now I smoke very lightly when I do at all. The whole thing also helped me work out that I vastly prefer to be lightly stoned rather than smashed, which is what I was doing with bongs as a teenager, and stopped me from smoking too regularly.
But as I also kinda implied, some friends of mine have drug-induced mental problems which were severely exacerbated by smoking, which resulted in schizophrenia and them being in and out of mental hospitals. One was purely from pot and the other was from pot and a few other things, and from what I understand from the science* it's usually only like this if you've got a predisposition towards these conditions.
So I guess I'd be taking what's happening to you as a bit of a warning sign to get off the weed for a while and see how it goes. As OWW says if your friends are any kind of decent friends they'll be fine with you passing on a toke.
*I'm not at all familiar, just what I picked up at the time from a few mental health docs which might be well out of date by now.
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