Dear blog thread,
Tonight a guy (previously mentioned, in case anyone actually read it) basically told me that I was one of very few reasons he was moving here in less than a week. This scares the crap out of me. Seriously. We've talked online for maybe 4-5 years, and via text message for like..2? 3? Don't know. Anyways, he is moving here with a friend, and I guess this means we should meet. Which would be nice, maybe, because he is a good friend. But he keeps saying this stuff that makes me sceptical and freak out a tiny little bit. I just want a friend! I do not think I like him as anything more, because while we are similiar in terms of personality, we are very different in terms of interests and well, life in general - which he doesn't seem to get? But I don't know what he expects, I don't know what he thinks I expect and I don't know how this works. I'm not used to issues like this! And I think I may be incapable of talking about this kind of stuff in real life. And I don't want to voice my concerns to him, in case I'm just overthinking and overestimating stuff (but in a way, I don't think I am). I feel stupid and just want to stop this entire thing, maybe.
In short: You do not move (among other reasons) because of someone you've never even talked to for real, especially without telling them that they are a major reason until 3 days before you get there! It's like..hey, no pressure! If we don't hit it off, I only..moved 140 miles!
So basically, it is 3AM, I've dogded his last text messages (and will tell him tomorrow that I fell asleep), but I cannot for the life of me shove this stuff aside so that I can get some sleep.
Also, suddenly everyone is talking about The Wire! I've been recommended it for like a year, maybe, by someone, but now all of a sudden it's everywhere! I may have to actually check it out. After rewatching the good seasons of Gilmore Girls.