Jesus, sometimes I wonder what goes on in my head. A friend just called, who I haven't really seen in forever, and she's super nice. She asked if I wanted a book that she had borrowed back, and I said sure, we could meet up on Monday, and then she asked if I maybe wanted to join her for dinner today. And my immediate response: "Oh, that would've been so nice, but I just started my own dinner!" ....which I hadn't. I mean, I'd planned it, and taken out all the stuff, but I hadn't started, and having dinner with someone would be totally nice. I am a fucking expert at making up silly excuses to avoid being social, even when I want to, and without even thinking about it, it just happens, and then I realize a minute later what I just did.
Why, oh, why? It's so fucking dumb.