Evernew, tell her how you feel about it all(i.e. "I don't want a relationship," "It's flattering that you like me, but it'd be better if you didn't," "I'm leaving soon.") And stop fucking having sex with her jesus h christ. If you know this girl is banging you because it makes her feel close to someone, and whatnot, stop sticking your dick in her if you can't reciprocate. You are leading her on. Stop. Its mean, and the longer you do it, the more heartache you are gonna cause. Fucking stop fucking. Jesus.
Anyway, guys, I am trying to save money. I am also trying to keep sane. Should I go to the art supply store to buy some supplies to paint a picture for my livingroom?
Also, fucking god damn people. I hate people. First of all, if you want to talk to me, just fucking start talking. Don't sit next to me/in front of me, and move around a lot and grunt and sigh and stare at me because I will just fucking ignore you. Second of all, yes it hurt, no I don't regret it, yes I like it, no I don't think its strange, yes its in my cleavege, no it doesn't have another end, it does not come out anywhere, no its not some sexual thing, no I am not a freak, yes I can hear you whispering about me from across the room, yes I can tell you are staring at me, yes I am actually human and have feelings too, and it does actually bother me a lot that you feel the need to stare at me and make me feel like some sort of freak on display. Thirdly, fucking god damn I hate old people. And I know this makes me a terrible person.