Dear blog thread,
My team won again this week (tonight). The guy I nominated for elimination, who I picked to nominate because I knew nobody else would nominate him, got eliminated. I was right, nobody else nominated him! But after we went through the nomination process a couple times and nobody got booted, Zana (the exec. producer as well as the show host) was like "Uhhhh fuck it let's eliminate whoever has the least votes" and he happened to be the guy. Cue me crying and feeling guilty for the next hour. When I finally managed to get it explained to him (I had my friend Labi translate to avoid confusion), he was like "...oh, I totally get it now. Fuck, man" and he gave me a massive hug and I just cried harder because that kind of humanity and understanding is damn rare, so to see him get kicked off despite it just made things worse.
Desi, the girl with the mindfuck flurry of emotions, wound up losing her battle. It was a really close battle, but she lost. So after the show, while I was still down about Ergi getting eliminated, I was the first to notice her crying, and so I went over and gave her a hug. She felt a bit better, and then more people were like "Hey listen kid you did great, and we're not just saying this to make you feel better." So that felt pretty good.
After all of that, I went out with the Kosovar kids from the show, and it took my mind off of things. They're good people, the lot of them. I'm so lucky to have them to hang out with...
Love,
Me!