Dream 1: I'm in a nice house that is mine, or maybe my parents, and we either live here, and just moved, or it is our vacation home. Everyone starts discussing how we will give thanks and worship, and being the nonreligious ass that I am start to make jokes about it. Very sarcastic jokes. No one laughs. Then a few people I know, or used to know(they were old old friends from fucking middle school that i haven't seen in a very very long time.), came in. They ran to a corner, which I noticed had darkened spots on the floor. I make jokes about how they are involved in this silly religion and how I didn't expect to see them here. Everyone, myself excluded, puts on pig masks, and begin to dig in the spots on the floor, stuff their faces, and sing about being a gluttonous pig. I am horrified, and make awkward jokes about this being a cult. My mom yells at me, and demands I worship the same as everyone else. I am disgusted.
Dream 2: I am trying to catch a train. I am driving a car(I don't drive.). It is black. Maybe a Jetta. It is nice. My friend(and excrush and current unattainable crush and one of my best friends ever) is in the car with me. He is talking, and I know he is trying to stay something, but I can't hear him. We get to the station. The train is getting ready to leave. There are gaurds. There is a high fence, with barbed wire on the top. My friend stands next to me as I try to climb. He looks concerned but doesn't talk. The sun is high in the sky. The sky is very blue. The trees are very green. The ground is very brown. Everything is very clear. I can see everything. My friend seems worried.
Dream 3: I am in a filthy house. It is in the middle of nowhere, but also deep in the ghetto of a city. I don't know where I am. I don't know anyone. People who I barely know are here. I am supposed to be hanging out with them. I feel like I am house sitting. The house is disgusting. It smells like lizards and crikets. There are molding dishes in the sink. I want to clean. A man calls me "Anime boobs". People joke about the size of my breasts. Everyone says they are huge, thus the name. I become very self concious. I want to do the dishes. My clothes don't fit. I have on bright colors. The house is dark, and drab. Muted colors. Everything feels moist, mossy. It's cold, but the sun is out and it is hot. They try to get me to drink. Everyone hands me vodka. Everyone calls me "Anime boobs". I feel alone.
These are just the past few days worth of dreams. I recently stopped taking sleeping pill every night. Now i have these dreams.