I'm being strongly suggested by my partner and friends to quit my job, since my last review. And I'm feeling very let down by my employer.
I've busted my arse over the past two years, on less then industry standard salary, because whilst I have a brain and use it willingly, i don't have certificates to prove I can do the things I do, being self taught. I accepted the salary on the basis that once they can see what i'm capable of the pay goes up.
It's been two years. I'm doing much more complicated work and many hours unpaid overtime. They know i'm reliable, dependable, i don't take holidays, and I've literally covered three ppls duties across two branches when the situations needed it. Whenever something exceptional pops up I get shafted it because they know i'll get it done and done right. Mostly because I'm a little possessive and would feel embarrassed to do work below my personal standard.
But other wise I'm disrespected and repeatedly mocked. The more work I do, the more that's demanded. The office politcs don't work and don't look to change. My request for a pay rise is being considered but i'm not hopeful that what they come back with will reflect what I've put in.
And I'm frustrated. I know I've been a bit of a door mat, but I honestly gave everything thinking loyalty and hardwork would get rewarded. I feel like I've wasted the past two years.
So now I'm looking for a new job with little hope. There's not a lot going in my area, which was why i took my current role at lower pay. I was relieved to get a role simply where i could get my foot in the door with hopes of moving up through the ranks. Now I feel I'm back to square one.
My Partner wants me to hand in my resignation tomorrow. I'm hesitant about doing so until I've lined up something else. However lining up something else could take time, and I run the risk of becoming complacent in my position again in the meantime. If i leave, and don't find a new role quickly, my partner has said he'd support me... but I can't stand the thought of not earning my way, not to mention the stress being financially dependant/responsible for another could put on our relationship.
So... resign now and focus full time on finding another job with no guarentee of immediate success. Could be the mental vacation i need and my doctors insisting i need.
Stay in an unhealthy work environment whilst looking for another job, where i have very little time or freedom to improve my situation. I'm earning some money at least and it gets me out of the house.
*Head desk*
I'm not actually looking for advice really. Writting this is simply helping me line my thoughts up, as so far all i want to do is shy away from the feelings of betrayal that come when i think of work.