That job has gotten back to me and is offering me $20/hr. I'm taking it. It will be enough to get us by, give me time to be pickier about a fulltime job, and give me some good experience. They want a 6 month commitment which I can do.
This has been a busy week for me. I am talking at an event on Sat, and one of the other speakers is the author of a new O'reilly book which I am halfway through and I love. I also have interacted with him on twitter some, and he has been in town all week, so I crashed a class he was guest lecturing in, and went to a book talk he gave, and I'm so pleased that I did. He seems like a genuinely great person with a similar background/way of thinking. When talking about his journey to writing this book, he said that he used to give a lot o 45 min talks about "this stuff" based on what he sort of felt was right. That he had ideas about things, and would share them, but then when someone told him he should write a book, and he decided to do it, he realized he had to get some hard research done, and so he spent 3 years writing the book. What's great about this is I am at the "gives talks about what I feel is right based on an assortment of shallow research" stage of my career, and it's been making me really anxious: for this event on Sat, and the national one in April I am talking about some theoretical shit, but I know I am much, much, less well read than I should be, and I have been in knots about how I can be given this opportunity when I'm basically just spewing my thoughts like I would for some friends. Now I am looking at it like: you're just him 8 years ago. and I can handle that. I'd love to be the him of the future in 10 years. I need to remind myself that this has been my field of study for literally a year. No one expects me to have all the answers.