Kris, it's a pleasure seeing you back again!
Dear blag,
The ex-lady has been pestering me for an explanation on why I broke up with her, and after plenty of putting it off, I finally relented. Given the way things have gone with it so far, I wasn't really expecting it to go over too well, and I was right. Spent all morning fighting with her, it was awful. I hate fighting so much. But it was over by early afternoon, save for one outburst from her later in the day. By that point, my day had already been made awesome again by band practice followed by dinner with Matt, his family, and some of their friends, so fuck it.
I gotta work on figuring out how to avoid such ugly breakups, though. It's something of a theme with me. I've had a few that went well, and a lot that went horribly. And I know fully well that I'm the least common denominator and that I should be paying closer attention to my part in these things. I just sincerely have no idea what I'm doing wrong.
And people wonder why I spent over 18 months out of relationships and never wanted to date again... they're hard work, and that shit just ain't something I wanna spend mental energy on.