So I've kinda managed to put my disappointment (over not getting that job this time 'round) behind me and it really feels nice, I feel less burdened and depressed than I have in a long time and once again have a spring in my step. For some reason I've been eyed and smiled at by pretty and happy strangers unusually often these past few days, and I was wondering if it was because I was looking unusually silly but have decided now that it must be because this week I look like a happy man rather than like a despondent tired unshaven hobo.
After many years of just being a lazy 'fraidycat I've finally gotten started on getting my driver's license. The missus will be my teacher at first
to celebrate she snuck off into town while I was nursing a post-call hangover to get lots of nice things including my FAVOURITE TEA BLEND in the world! I dunno it may sound like a dumb hipstery thing, but I associate this tea with a turning point and a moment of great happiness in the middle of one of the roughest times I've ever had, and it's my own modified version so it just makes me feel extra good when I smell it and it tastes just as amazing as I remember
We've tried to make these past couple of weeks as nice as possible. We'd gotten into the habit of just trampling along and that's just not a nice way to live if it goes on for too long. It doesn't take much to change that feeling of sameyness, I think. The house is clean, we've made some changes to make it look nicer and be more practical, we've started cooking properly again and even eating at the dinner table on occasion, started reading interesting things and writing a little... I'm more or less on top of my paperwork for once too. I feel like there're all these huge untapped reserves of time and energy in my life that are often locked away and out of sight because I happen to be weighed down by various things that I honestly do not need to be weighed down by. I dunno. It's nice to feel this way anyway. I have one more night on call, which will be a little scary because I'll be shadowed by a new colleague who's a very skilled consultant in another speciality and with a lot of experience in neurology, and I'm a little embarrassed that I may have acquired bad habits... that'll become blatantly obvious. A little self-conscious I guess. I'll have to step up my game
In super squee news my sis has apparently admitted to my mum that she has a boyfriend
my wife and I have suspected for a long time, and the guy seems like a good person who can not only keep up with my sis intellectually as well as wrt adventure etc, and shares her passion for helping people, but also seems genuinely considerate. This is a big deal because my sis has never ever ever admitted to having a boyfriend before, for reasons about which I shan't speculate, and I think it's a good thing that she's learned that she can talk to mum about these things
I think mum is very happy and I know she thinks he's a good guy. My mum's generally very observant, and she knew I was up to something long before I told her about the ginger, but she had no idea my sis and this guy were in a relationship until I asked her and she, in turn, asked my sis. It's cool, I think they've known each other almost as long as the ginger and I have been together. I gotta get to know this person better
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