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[Josefbugman]

Do what I always go to people who claim they love Che. "oh so you like setting up death camps for gay people, well I may have to ask you to leave"

Anything with the word "bourgouis" in the title is not going to be a fun watch. I always prefer socialists to communists, communists are generally slightly insane, at least in a certain sense.

Also, good luck with everyone meeting up, hope you all have a damn fun time.

[allison]

That's my argument! Not just gay people, but those who were mentally and physically disabled. Fuck Che.

[öde]

Fair trials? Pffft, not in my revolution!

[Josefbugman]

Then I bagsie being the counter revolution, and I get the tank.

[Ladybug]

This has been a crappy day. I woke up from a phone call from my brother who wanted to be picked up from school because there is a goddamn snow storm (okay, maybe not storm, but tons of snow and wind) outside and he's sick, so he didn't want to walk home. All fine and dandy, except my other brother was up and out with one of the cars, so he could've easily picked him up, but refused to. So I had to get up, get dressed, go outside in the snow "storm", dig out the other car, and pick him up from school. Then, after finally getting warm again after about an hour inside, I had to venture out into the cold again and pick up my parents from work, because my brother had driven them to work this morning so he could have the nice car available. The car he was, by the way, not using at all, so he really just drove them there so I had to pick them up. Then, when I got home, my mom decided it was time to yell at me because none of us "kids" apparently put stuff in the dishwasher, and they had been getting more and more annoyed by this all fall. The fact that I don't live here anymore and I've only been home for two weeks over Christmas? Apparently not important. I'm the one that gets most the blame anyways. And then, when this upsets me, they yell at me some more for not being a grown-up, and belittle me by comparing me to my youngest brother, who is the perfect one and always does what he's asked.

This all sounds so fucking stupid and minor, but it's been building up, and I'm tired of it and so glad I'm leaving on Thursday. I managed to stick with the "nod and accept their yelling, and then remove yourself from the situation" routine for two weeks, but I guess I have my limit. And I feel so sorry for my youngest brother, who has to live here and deal with them all year round, especially now that my other brother, who is a selfish jerk most of the time (quote: "I can't be bothered to do anything at home, because I know dad'll do it anyways if I just ignore it."), has moved back home and will continue to frustrate my mom to no end. And now I have to go cook the dinner for the third day in a row. But, you know, I don't do anything at home. At all.

[RedLion]

The previous talk of dental work on this page reminded me: yesterday I had a cavity drilled with no Novocaine. It's the weirdest feeling in the world. It's not painful in a conventional sense, but it's the most uncomfortable thing I have ever experienced. It's like someone is pouring ice cold water directly into your tooth.

[pen]

Depends how deep your cavity is.  I had a shallow cavity filled with no novocaine when i was probably 10 and my mouth vibrated a lot but i wasn't bothered by anything.  Sounds like yours was pretty close to a nerve. 

[mishy]

re: dentists. i can't handle more than cleanings. any fillings (and i have lots) require me to take Ativan, which honestly doesn't help at the time (i just forget the whole day that had a dentist appt in it) and i end up panicking and squirming in my chair, tears pouring out the sides of my eyes and into my ears, me gripping the hygenist's hand like i'm in fucking labour.... and it's not about the pain, i'm just fucking scared of getting dental work. and i'm not a child, i don't know wtf is wrong with me and dentists...


anyway...

dear blog thread. this is my first post in here. i feel like punching someone, and short of any other suitable, reasonable, legal, allowable target, i feel like punching myself. in the face. i don't even know what's wrong, i just get this feeling of "gaaaaaahhhh!! i can't stand it anymore!!!!1" and it's not even anything in particular. it's just this buzzing negative energy building to a boiling point.. and punching a pillow wouldn't help. i feel like i need to make a mark. i'm somehow reminded of fight club now....

i dunno, does anyone else ever feel like this?

[Jimmy the Squid]

Yeah. A lot actually. I deal with it through scream therapy. This isn't real scream therapy by the way, but I use my weekly rehearsals with my black metal band as kind of an outlet for my rage and depression. There was a point late last year when we hadn't rehearsed for about two months because first I had had my university exams and then the drummer had had his exams and we just didn't have the time. By the end of the first month I had started to treat everyone around me like absolute shit and I completely and unabashedly hated myself. I began to alienate the people who mean the most to me and even my posts here (where some of the people who mean the most to me are) began to get more and more bitter (I think, anyway). The first day back at rehearsal was incredible. I hadn't realised how important it was for me to have that outlet through which I could channel all my negativity.

Long story short, cartharsis is rad. Consider joining a metal band?

[Jimmy the Squid]

Also, ahh there's a spider in my room! It's big and hairy and where the fuck did it go??? Fuck I hate things with more than four legs!!!

[Emaline]

Says the squid. Ha


Guys it is cold and I am bored. I am painting, and still freezing my ass off, and being bored. I want somebody to talk to. I am considering posting my god damn phone number online just so I can have somebody to talk to.

[mishy]

hrrm, maybe not a metal band, but i do like to sing and it could be cathartic. and i could, you know, end up famous n shit. hahahahaha. haha. ha.
anyone in the Greater Vancouver area need a singer? i can read music and sing in key (or maybe scream in key?) but i suck at instruments.
alternatively, anyone in the Greater Vancouver area need a punch in the face? no, don't answer that one...

update: spontaneous crying episode swiftly followed by me making fun of myself resulted in return to neutral-low. humour is my coping mechanism, but really it's just avoidance and doesn't fix anything.
2 hours until i can go home and stone myself into peacefulness. (and by "stone" i am not referring to rocks of any sort. we're WoW junkies. we call it Peacebloom. we say we're "buffing up" irl. holy crap, i'm a geek.)

Emaline: i would phone chat with you but alas, i am at work. then again, i'm probably not great company right now anyway...

[Josefbugman]

Why is everyone so upset lately? I feel really bad as I can't help... but well... *hugs for everyone feeling unwell*

and also, I wouldn't put the telephone on the interweb, people like me live there.

[Emaline]

Probably better compant than a dog, and a grumpy old roommate who I always think is pissed for some reason.

At this point, I am giving emotions to barely there character's in stories, and completing their story. Case in point, the narrator of this story is cheating on his wife, and had cheated on his wife, since the story is in past tense, and in my head, she called to his work one night, and found out he was not there, and she knew all along, and how could he be such a douchebag??? How could he do this to her and their girls? What a terrible thing to do. Except the wife is pretty nonexistent in this story, and her name is never mentioned, and why do I feel sorry for fictional characters?

This is what I am doing to combat loneliness.

And paint stories on paper for people's gifts.


My roommate says that if I lived at the bottom of the ocean I'd go crazy, because humans need social contact, so I told him I'd just talk to things, and it'd be fine. He told me that that is called schizophrenia. At which point I told him that talking to things does not make you crazy, expecting them to talk back does, kinda. I can greet the sun every morning if I want, and it does not make me crazy.

[mishy]

i think the phone thing wasn't serious (maybe?), just there to make a point about reaching out.

i think i'll stop posting (after this) unless i have something really awesome to say. i think i have an unintentional tendency to kill threads, though that's the last thing i want.
maybe i'm just awkward.
*shrug*


ps: Emaline, crazy is the new normal. hell, it's even the old normal by now. but ya, people need people, that's why cities are so crowded. when's the last time you got a good hug?

[tania]

phone bill crisis resolved! i called rogers and made some noises of panic at them cos i was sure it was somehow my fuck up and they cut it down from $300 to $150. then it turned out it was my housemate who called her mom's cell phone while she was flying over africa or something. i don't know or care cos it isn't my problem anymore! RELIEF.

[benji]

January is a busy month folks. Classes start, people have waited until the last minute to prepare, things go wrong and everyone calls me. This is my least/most favorite time of year. Being really busy and useful is good, but sometimes you just want to jump off a bridge.

The only bad thing today was that the heat in my office is way way too powerful. I swear in must be 90 in here when I have the door closed.

Also, I had the most wonderful social justice type meeting I've had in a while yesterday. Sometimes you feel like you're fighting against an impossible tide of injustice and indifference (which, naturally, you are) and you give in to despair. But sometimes the right combination of on-fire youngsters and elders of the church show up to a meeting and you think "holy shit, we really could change the world."

[Emaline]

ps: Emaline, crazy is the new normal. hell, it's even the old normal by now. but ya, people need people, that's why cities are so crowded. when's the last time you got a good hug?

Well, everyone around me kept giving me hugs last week. That doesn't make me any less inclined to be a hermit.

[Josefbugman]

Then curl up in bed, get yourself warm and just try to keep yourself from getting bored, read Television Tropes or the anauls of an old webcomic. Sorry if thats not helpful.

[Emaline]

I ended up taking my dog to the vet and coming home and cooking dinner. Dinner was blah, and my dog has tumors.

The tumors aren't bad and are more than likely fine, they want me to watch them and see if they grow.

I am thinking of cooking a mini pizza to make up for the blahness of dinner.

The boredom is basically being fought with tv, painting, and literature.

[20 jazz funk greats]

Sleep deprived as I was, the idea of a dentist playing a Mission of Burma song in my mouth with a drill sent me into fits of hysterical laughter.

i am not sleep deprived at all and i actually laughed at this in real life. oh you.

dear blog thread,

i have tonsillitis!  i can't really do much of anything. like, even typing stuff seems like a strenuous task right now. so does trying to read, or watch anything that requires the slightest bit of concentration.
i am bored, going stir crazy, and already falling a bit behind on my work for second term.

love,
anna

[David_Dovey]

Dear Blog Thread,

I shaved, and now have the most righteous dirtstache ever. Also I bought Watchmen! Woooo

[Christophe]

Things I did on my 21st Birthday:

Had Breakfast.
Edited Wikipedia.
Watched an episode of Law and Order: Criminal Intent.
Hung out with my friend Scott and made him watch the movie Toys (which is on Hulu), featuring Robin Williams and Joan Cusack. He goes on to name it the weirdest film he's ever seen.
Later, watched Valkyrie in theaters.
At no point in my day did alcohol touch my lips.

Well, I thought it was okay. Hopefully my older siblings won't be sick so that I can get a little tipsy before going back to college.

[KvP]

Guuuuuh this lull in my moods seems to be lasting more than a day. At this point it's like my default headspace has... slid down, I guess? So that I'm just normally feeling frustrated and miserable. I was going to go on a hike with a friend tomorrow morning, which would have helped, but they canceled. I am twisting in the wind out here. It sucks.

[De_El]

Jens, the internet hopes you feel better, presupposing that a small component of the internet is me.

Blog thread I feel pretty okay because I am in Canada in a situation that I was afraid would make me feel terribly lonely and depressed but I have been spending quality time with my sister and I like her quite a bit. It is cool.

[ImRonBurgundy?]

I'm interning at Late Night With Conan O'Brien until March, and today our second guest was the sheriff of Maricopa County, Arizona, Joe Arpaio.  This guy bills himself as "The Toughest Sheriff in America" and seeks to reduce rates of recividism in his county by subjecting inmates in his jails to such indignities as working on chain gangs and solitary confinement.  However, this is a county jail, not a prison, meaning that these are people that have not even been convicted of a crime yet.  Moreover, his officers have a reputation for being taser-happy, and three deaths have resulted from officers restraining inmates too roughly and applying their tasers too judiciously.  During Arpaio's tenure as Maricopa County sheriff, the sheriff's office has paid over $43 million in legal settlements stemming from lawsuits related to cases such as these.

So, anyway, he was on Conan to promote his new reality show, which, after the introductory clip was shown, Conan called "possibly a sign of the apocalypse".  For reasons stemming from his ties to various human rights abuses in his jails, we got a lot of people calling into the office to complain, and will probably have many more tomorrow after the show airs.

And he wasn't even a good interviewee.  He spoke very softly in aimless, meandering sentences and never seemed to quite fully register what any of Conan's questions were--you'd think a guy who thrives on publicity and his own image so much would be a bit more media-savvy.  Conan finally found a pause in the middle of a rambling paragraph to cut him off and end the interview, his body language registering nothing so much as "bored to tears".

So, I'm certainly looking forward to working in the office tomorrow!

[Jace]

I don't really understand how Sheriff Joe keeps getting re-elected. I think people think he is making prison worse for inmates. Also, it might be because Arizona is a pretty republican state in general, and most republicans don't have to worry about being in county jail or getting tasered.
Dude needs to stop being sheriff though.

[David_Dovey]

most republicans don't worry about the welfare of other human beings

[redglasscurls]

My fucking shower pole won't stay up and crashes down somewhere in the 5-20 minute range after I put it back up. I'm home alone and the crash scares the living hell out of every goddamn time >.<

[jodizzle]

Oh oh Manda, that happens with ours too!  My bedroom is right behind the bathroom too, so I almost have a heart attack whenever it happens.

[redglasscurls]

It's that awful mix of metal pole on tile and the little rings clicking around:( We should both get some epoxy and just glue the fuckers up

[Inlander]

This evening I went over the road to m' local to get a beer and work on the manuscript I've been working on for ages. Shortly after I got there I discovered that, unadvertised, Oliver Mann was performing there tonight. Oliver Mann is perhaps my favourite musical discovery of the past year, so I was pretty excited, especially given that entry to the gig was only A$8! (Here's a really cool YouTube video of his, check it out: http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=xBFIWd2F3ak.) Also completely out of the blue, at the same gig (but to see the main act) was a really old friend of mine and her boyfriend, so that was pretty cool bumping into them just like that. (She's just moved in a block from me a few weeks ago.)

Then when Oliver Mann finished playing, I went into the non-music part of the pub and sat down to do my manuscript work, and got a really good amount done. I'm on about the fifth or sixth draft now, and I think I should have it finished and ready to try to get published by March. So all in all it was a pretty good evening!

Also, about half-way through the day I realised I'd put my underpants on inside-out.

[David_Dovey]

Did you fix them?

I feel the answer will be integral in understanding who you are

[Inlander]

By the time I realised, one side of the underpants had already been pressed up against my arse and junk for several hours. I felt that walking around for the rest of the day in underpants that had been arsed and junked on both sides would be pushing the bounds of common decency.

[Dimmukane]

Hmmmm...My friend managed to get his girlfriend pregnant while she was on birth control.  The odds of this happening are 3 in 10,000.  His seed overpowered the contraception.

[Dimmukane]

If you don't mind me asking, what came of that?  Right now they're both kind of in shock.

[pen]

Getting pregnant while on birth control is not unusual.  It depends on the choice method, really.  I got pregnant while on the patch.  My doctor was not surprised at all when I told her that's what I was using.  She'd seen a LOT of patch users come in to the office at that point.   

[Dimmukane]

She was using the pill, I don't know quite how common births on the pill are.  It just kind of happened at a weird time, because one of our other friends is due in a few months, and he was trying to go to school in Arizona. 

[0bsessions]

I had a girlfriend who was on the pill once. She apparently stopped taking it without telling me in an effort to get knocked up.

I'm still not quite sure how I dodged that bullet.

[valley_parade]

Maybe you're sterile, Jon

[tania]

it happened to a friend of mine too. the odds are calculated not by the the amount of people but by the amount of times you have sex. so, 3 in 10,000 instances of banging, not 3 in 10,000 people using that method of birth control. unfortunately, people never really find that out until it's too late.

[redglasscurls]

Hmmmm...My friend managed to get his girlfriend pregnant while she was on birth control.  The odds of this happening are 3 in 10,000.  His seed overpowered the contraception.

The same thing happened to good friends of mine in their junior year of high school. They went ahead and had their son, and got married two years later when they were out of school and had solid jobs. It's working out pretty well, but they've had to grow up much much faster than most people their age. Their son also has mild cerebral palsy, so there's a whole different set of issues surrounding that.

[0bsessions]

Maybe you're sterile, Jon

This would actually be a legitimate concern for me if I weren't 100% sure I'm not. I do want to have a kid eventually.

[benji]

It's actually 3 in 1,000. 3 in 1,000 women taking the pill will get pregnant in 1 year if they take the pill perfectly. Taking it perfectly means the same time each day, never missing a day, and not taking any conflicting medications.

[Cicero]

most republicans don't worry about the welfare of other human beings

This generalization makes me sad.

[Barmymoo]

Three things of note happened today:

I did lots of revision for my Law exam! Although I still need to do lots more, I feel pretty confident that it will happen.
Every member of staff I spoke to today managed to get the number 92 into the conversation. I think they are plotting to keep me from forgetting.
My favourite North Dakotian became an adult! Happy adulthood.

[Cicero]

Good luck on your Law Exam, and yes -- Happy Birthday to my fellow North Dakotan!   YOU ARE LEGAL.  WOO!     Now, I wonder if she'll ever want to go downtown and paint the town read. . . what say you Birthday Girl?    We have to keep up with the pub stuff like HGR and all the other Anthropology professors rave about.    Baby steps though!   Don't be swallowed whole. 

[Liz]

My favourite North Dakotian became an adult! Happy adulthood.

D'awww, thanks! Only problem is that I'm not actually a North Dakotan, I just live here for now. But still, thanks!

Also the odds of me wanting to go out and get trashed are about 1 in 10000000000000000000000 as of right now, so I think you will be waiting quite a while.

[Josefbugman]

Happy Birthday! Heres hoping to many more. Wait till later in the evening, then you will be in the mood no doubt.

[Liz]

No, I am pretty sure I won't be.