I have to confess that I am struggling with this, more than I have with any of Steve's other modifications. My previous objections have been mostly health based: What if something goes wrong, we don't have health insurance and you might be institutionalized if we have to seek care for this thing you did to yourself. The eyes are different. They eyes will drastically change the way Stephen looks. This makes me nervous for two reasons.
One is I am afraid that I won't handle it well. I like the way Stephen's eyes look. I like gazing into them and saying mushy things. I am worried that the change will be off putting, and I will avoid eye contact. I am sure I will come to terms with it though.
My other concern is more pragmatic. I had told Steve he can't do this until I get a career, and that is not just a matter of affording it, but also because I think that getting this done is resigning himself to unemployment. As a huge believer in one's right to do what they want to their body, and as someone with a non-traditional look, I feel bad about this, but I can only see a very limited number of jobs that would be ok with his eyes. Even if it doesn't effect his work performance, he wil have trouble with interviews.
Our plan has been for some time, that I would be the primary earner but I am worried that we have over-estimated my future earning potential and nervous about Stephen's well being if he is just trapped at home forever. I am also worried that if I do end up changing my hair color to get a job, particularly one I don't love, that I will be bitter that Stephen got to have his modifications and I had to give mine up.
I know he has made up his mind, and I know from the past that once he does it is a matter of when and not if, and philosophically I support that. It is his body, he should absolutely have the right to do what he wants with it and the eyes will look bad-ass. I just need more time to adjust to it.