Dear Uni/College thread,
I am in the midst of what is probably my worst week so far in the first semester of my first year at college. I'm almost two months into freshman year, and I still haven't figured out how to handle the ridiculous amount of academic work that I've been saddled with. I thought that I would finally be able to really start working at my academics (unlike in high school, when I didn't work at all), because I would be motivated by subjects I was interested in. I guess I thought wrong. I find myself more and more reluctant to even start the readings for all my classes, I never do the practice problems for my calculus course (which are ungraded, but would probably be helpful, considering how bad at math I am). This week I have a philosophy paper due and a midterm in my theater course, and I haven't started writing the paper or studying for the midterm. And I'm planning on majoring in theater and philosophy, so I feel like if I should be motivated in any courses it is those courses.. Instead of doing work, I just seem to sit around all day and waste time on my computer, listening to music, or cleaning my room and doing laundry. The only things that I get really excited about are rehearsal for the play I'm in and rehearsal for my a cappella group. My weekends are taken over by socializing and more sitting around in anticipation of socializing. I feel like I really need to step up and kick my own ass into gear, but every time I try I end up relapsing back to my previous state of stagnation. The worst part is that I really do care about some of my courses (I really want to do well in philosophy and theater), but I can't get myself to put in the effort to make them rewarding.
Poop.