Calling the doctor. I also have a fever of 102.8.
Also, I am up and posting at 6:45am because I had a series of horrible, terrifying dreams, and now can't sleep. They were all weird and I woke up to scared to leave the bed. I made my boyfriend come to the bathroom with me so I could pee.
Anyway, the dreams went...:
Dream 1) I was one of the Bolyn girls, and my boyfriend was the kind they were after. We were all in a modern day grocery store, but it was all post-apocalypic, with no electricity, and very few displays being very dimly lit. It was hectic in there, yet I was not stressed. I could see my boyfriend further up the aile, making out with my sister, who I'm not sure who that was supposed to represent(does that make sense? I could tell that my boyfriend was who he was, yet he had the apperence of the king, and I could tell who I was yet I looked nothing like myself). I was going through this freezer filled with meat. One side was ground beef, and the other side was all organs. I needed to get ground beef for dinner but my boyfriend is really picky about what he'll grill so I had to find a certain kind, but all of it was bad, spoiled and slightly frozen, and covered in blood. To the point where blood was getting everywhere, it covered my arms and my clothes. I couldn't find anything in the ground meat, so I decided to try to find steaks or something in the organ pile. All of the organs are in good condition, except they are organs you/we don't typically eat. Intestines, heart, brain(so many brains. Some looked like human brains. Some were hollowed out and looked like the coconut husks I saw in this video I watch recently about octopuses), and kidneys(which freaked me out because in the dream I recalled a story I just read about an old Jewish man who had his kidney removed during his time in a concentration camp. Without any medicine. It was horrifiying). I can't find any meat, so I give up and go to rest on a pile of bodies(unsure if they are dead or alive), and reflect on life. Then I have to be a judge for an online match of MTG between my boyfriend and some guy.(A.I don't think they have judges for such a thing, and B.I doubt they'd let me be a judge of a match involving my boyfriend, even if I had all the year of experience and qualifications to be a judge) Judging the match, I am teasing my boyfriend a lot and being really flirty and sexual with him. The other guy says he feels it isn't appropiate, and we agree, and he ofters that we disregard that game, and we agree to, and then I type something that crashes my entire laptop, and can't judge because of it. I feel like I let everyone down, but am apathetic toward it.
Dream 2) my boyfriend and I have a house with a driveway and a son named Coltrane, and a border collie named Rex. We are all working in the driveway together. Our neighbor is also outside. He has always been friendly and we regarded him as a grandpa like figure. We recently learned that he is a registered sex offender, something involving boys our son's age(6 or 7). We remain nice to him, but don't want our son over there alone. But the man is outside working, and our son runs over and starts asking him all these questions about what he is doing like kids tend to do, and we are fine with him being over there because we can see them, but then the neighbor keeps trying to get our son to come in his garage where we wouldn't be able to see him, and then he turns his music up so loud that we can't hear them. Finally, we call Coltrane back over, and he comes running over unharmed, but the dog does not. After a few minutes, Rex yelps and comes limping back to us. The neighbor smashed his foot somehow. When I woke up, I realized that the neighbor was going to kill the dog to get to our son. Wtf
Dream 3) in this dream, one of my younger brother's(I assume its one of my brothers. I get a brotherly feel from him, but can't actually place who he is plus he has super dark skin and all of my siblings are pasty) is 18 and livng with us. Not being freshly 18, and acting well enough like an adult, and us having a good relationship, he asks me to take him to a porn store. At which point I ask him why he doesn't just walk since there is one right up the street. But he really wants me to go with him. In the dream, I can tell that he is gay. He is undenibly gay, but in the dream he hasn't even come out to himself.
Later he and I are looking at random things online, videos and pictures. At one point this form comes up, asking me to describe something. Not paying attention, I assume it is about the pictures. Very steam of conciously I describe the videos and pictures. One of the pictures was a skateboard with all these radical slogans painted on it, one being "think like a boy", so I typed that into the form. Later, we find out that the form is for a muslim dating site. At the time we think its very funny, and laugh at the end result, but in my "awake mind"(I'm vaugely certain that this was my asleep self judging my mind. Kind of like how I knew I disappointed people in dream 1, but my dream self did not care. Well my sleep self was judging harshly), I'm reading the profile, and am vaguely disturbed by my stream of thought.
So those are my fucked up dreams. Wtf wtf wtf. I do not understand any of them. None of them make any sense. I will never take melatonin and pain medicine at the same time ever again.
