I think that we're getting to the crux of Faye's heartbreak. She
thought she was in love with Angus. She did and still does feel that she owed it to him to try. However, in the end, she's come to realise that she
wasn't in love with him. Maybe she was in love with the
idea of being in love with him but that's all. Because of that, in the end, she just couldn't prioritise her relationship with him or even his feelings over the place that has become her home and her friends that are closer to her than her family.
This, I think, is the really shitty part of it, for her. She's hurt Angus (a perfectly nice guy who she really quite liked) because, in the end, she was fooling herself about her own feelings. That is why she's drinking: right now, she feels so guilty that she can't live with herself whilst sober.
This has always been Jeph's triumph as a writer. He can go from a completely sophomoric joke about condoms hidden in a library to a profound bit of pathos about feelings, self-deceit and the minefield that are human relationships. What's more, he's done this so smoothly that it isn't even
slightly jarring!
#2872 - Oh grud, this conversation with Pintsize make sense - The World is coming to an end!!!
I think that she feels safe to bare her soul to Pintsize because she doubts that he has the emotional depth to understand (notice her parting crack about Pintsize regretting he hasn't got a butt). However, I strongly suspect that she might be underestimating him.