I never expected to say this, but the funeral was really good. A number of people gave some really touching speeches. A couple of the speeches were heart breaking - three of her closest friends essentially broke down and cried in front of everyone, but they all managed to say some really sweet things. The other speeches (from her boyfriend, a friend of mine, and her cousin) were kind of the opposite - rather than saying how terrible it was to have lost her, they shared some amazing stories about her life, some of which were very funny. I left the ceremony feeling actually quite happy. She had a great life, was having the time of her life at uni, and with her boyfriend, and her death was so sudden that she never even knew it was coming - so no fear, no worry, no pain. Just happiness and then nothing. I hope when I go people can say that about me.
It was really inspiring seeing how many people turned up, as well. The crematorium was so packed that maybe two dozen people had to stand at the back, because there wasn't enough space for everyone to sit down.
I'm not entirely sure how I didn't cry. I genuinely don't remember the last time I cried - I don't think I've done it since I was a child. I was so close though. Closer than I can remember having ever been.
On the topic of humour in dark places, her boyfriend said something that totally caught me off guard, and I didn't believe he'd said it until my friend confirmed it. We were stood outside the crematorium immediately after the ceremony, making the rounds saying hello to everyone, when a noise came from the back of the crematorium. Upon hearing this noise, the only thing he said was "Well that's her done."