It seems like every single time I think things might be cool and I can feel like I am finally able to act my age, someone has to come around and tell me that I don't get to and that I shouldn't even try and date a girl unless I am certain I am going to marry her. Also that I am really good at failing and I don't set myself up for success. That part is true, but I don't really want to change that. I mean, I do, but it is a lot of work that I don't really want to invest time into. I am pretty okay with the fact that I fail at things. Hell, I'm 19, why do I have to act like I am 30? I was feeling pretty good and then after that conversation my night was ruined and because it was with my flatmate, I sort of want to just pack up all my stuff, go put some gas in my car and leave.