Gem, I'm sorry that everything sucks right now. I know how you feel.
Things are shit here right now. My job is fucking terrible. The girl that got promoted over me either refuses to aknowledge me or when she does, it is only to completely disagree with what I say. Which is not helpful at all, and is often over really stupid things(there was a disc that had a crack/dent in the side, and I was going to toss it out but she is convinced that we can buff it out, even though she has never worked in buff before, and I have, and it won't fucking buff out). So that shit sucks.
Then the dog is being fucking terrible. I swear to god this dog has progressed backwards, despite working with him all the time. He went from laying down on his bed as soon as we shut the light out, and staying there all night, to jumping up on our bed, running down the hall/repeat, chase the cats, get in to everything, pee everywhere, eat my fucking phone charger as it is plugged into the wall and my phone. Ugh. I want to murder him some days. And he refuses to be housebroken! He woke us up at 4am last night scratching at the back door, so we took him outside and nothing! He just stands around and listens to things, and rolls in the dirt. He won't learn not to jump up either. He has learned that if you jump up and then sit down you get a treat, so he has been doing that. He has chewed through his collar and leash. And he is stressing out my boyfriend beyond belief, to the point where I feel like I am dealing with two very very pissy children. I am constantly cleaning up messes and calming people down.
And we were so broke last month. Toward the end of the month we had $24 total between the two of us. He just got paid, but I haven't yet, so its not a huge deal, but I feel like I'm not pulling my weight, and my phone bill is due tomorrow, and I still don't have a winter coat, and I'll never be able to afford one, and I need socks and underwear too, and we haven't really got groceries, and we still have rent to pay, and we just turned the heat on, and soon we'll have to pay $200 a month for my health inssurance. And basically I am a huge ball of stress. My back is killing me, and I can't sleep, and I feel like vomiting all the time. And I am either always hungry or never hungry, and I always feel like I'm overeating. And I feel like a terrible person for doing anything enjoyable. And I can't finish anything I start. And aasdfghjkl fuck you life.