I've been drinking Smirnoff lemonade mixed with Simply Lemonade since like ... 11, y'all. And I'm staying with a friend, and she just went to bed. And now I'm feeling a profound existential loneliness. Probably because I'm an idiot and took my antidepressant (the dosage of which was recently doubled) yesterday after drinking said mixture of lemonade then as well. Words are hard. I don't know what I'm trying to say, but I think you guys will get it, maybe? I don't know, but none of my friends are awake, and I'm sad and lonely. This is stupid. My best friend has taken to not wanting to talk to me and ignoring me for no real reason, and it sucks, sucks, sucks. It's 4 AM, and I'm only vaguely tired but mostly sad. And I've been sitting and looking at my favorite conspiracy theory website. Wheeeee. Life is stupid. I don't want to go to class on Monday. Or ever. I want to curl up in a cardboard box and get picked up and adopted by someone who will love me. I want to be loved. Why am I so sad?
ALSO, VALENTINE'S DAY IS STUPID. JUST A FRIENDLY NEIGHBORHOOD PSA.
Also, why will there never be any news? It's so sad--WHY IS IT SO SAD??? (P.S. I stopped drinking like 40 minutes ago, and I have no idea why I'm just now feeling the effects of this stupid stuff.
Also, how pathetic is it that I'm having an existential crisis on a thread for non-sober people like I suppose I am right now? Scale of 1-10, y'all, with 10 being SUPER-FREAKING-PATHETIC.