I have reviewed all of your previous posts in excruciating detail, I have sent a PI to follow you and then report back to me later, I have come to certain conclusions because of this. You have no life, all of your happiness is devoid of true feelings. You are unintelligent, unattractive, and frankly, you have no sense of humor. You do not know when to let things go, were I to meet you in real life, I would seriously consider ending your life because I think we both know that there is nothing you'll ever do that will amount to anything beyond cow manure. The best choice for you would be to go out and find a large sharp object, and stab yourself, hopefully you'll die from it and not end up in the hospital being nursed through a coma by your uninspiring family. You are a burden on them that should no longer be carried. Soon after your accident, they will drop you, and you'll fall into obscurity in the family history.